My Social Media-less Life

I deleted social media two whole days before I said I was going to. “Why wait anymore?” I asked myself. “It’s not as if there’s something to wait for.”

Since then I’ve worked two much fuller days than I’d like, hung out with family (pictured above with one of my nephews and two of my mom’s dogs), and gone to a church function in a park. You would think I wouldn’t have thought about not having social media, right?

Wrong. It’s much harder than I thought.

If you’ve followed me on social media for any length of time, you might recall I’ve gone through stints of not having social media. I was off Facebook for almost four months back in 2020! And before 2020, it was easy for me to not be on Instagram if I wanted to take a break… but there was always Twitter when I really felt the need for that dopamine kick. So even then, I was never fully off. Plus I knew that if I ever wanted to go back everything and everyone was there to greet me as soon as I logged in.

But now… it’s just… empty. Bathroom trips are definitely different. As are my natural energy dips during the day while I’m working. If my actual brain had its own tongue, it would obsessively chew on it for all the withdrawal symptoms I feel like I’m going through.

At this point one might wonder, Why not just deactivate your accounts, Erica? Why get rid of them completely? That’s a lot of life on there…

I mean, aside from the “conspiracy theories” that the government now knows more about me than I do, I was LITERALLY addicted to social media like a druggie.

Fun fact: nights are the hardest. Well, nights when there’s nothing left to do and mornings when I first wake up. I knew these would be problem areas for me, but I didn’t think it would be quite this bad.

It’s almost like losing a loved one, but also quitting a bad habit cold turkey at the same time. Weird as heck… shoutout to my mom and my few friends who have been checking in on me during the day to make sure I’m not going completely off the rails… anymore than usual, that is. 😉

That’s all I’ve got for now. I’ll post another blog at the end of the week. 🙂