My Social Media-less Life

In the rarest bout of honesty I can muster on this blog (and I do a lot of it anyway), I have to admit… lately I have felt as though I have been struggling to have emotions. Or at least, good emotions.

And by “good”, I mean, “not snippy, snarky, or otherwise biting or sarcastic.”

I’m not sure if I’m just tired of the way my life is or if I need to do some serious soul-searching, or if it’s both. Lately, I’ve noticed, even being out of the realm of the constant news cycle, very little gives me any kind of emotion.

Basically, I’ve become apathetic.

Even reading the Bible has caused me to shrug my shoulders in unconcern, not really letting the Word do what He does.

Realistically I was beginning to think that this was the way my life was going to be from now on: no real emotions except in extreme cases where it just happened. It’s a depressing thought, but… no one is ever thinking clearly when they’ve become completely unmoved by anything.

Within the past two weeks, I found a book series. (It seems unrelated. I promise it’s not)

I literally slept 4 hours last night because I needed to know the outcome of the book in the series I was on. I promise, I tried to sleep the full 8… or at least a solid 6. Alas, 4 was all I could manage.

Since I started this series, I have determined either the author is a Christian or at least has some pretty solid foundation in Christianity because the amount of Biblical themes in the book (without anyone strictly and soundly rejecting them as hogwash or religious nonsense) is really surprising. Through the process of going through this series, I have discovered something about myself:

I’m not as apathetic as I thought.

All I needed was a different perspective. It’s really amazing what a fresh– and thankfully in this case, fiction– story can do to a soul that is beleaguered by so many different stimuli that it’s impossible to tell what’s worth spending emotional capital on. I’m just glad I went out of my way to get acquainted with these new characters on a suggestion from my mom, who only happened to see the book’s title and thought it would be something I’d enjoy.

In the past 24 hours especially, I have come to enjoy the breath of fresh air that this story has brought me as I navigate the realness of everyday life.

If you are feeling weighed down by everything… find something new to take your mind off your troubles for a bit that will help re-center yourself. Everyone has that something. Don’t be ashamed if that something isn’t exactly the Bible. One of my pastors once told me all story ideas come from the Greatest Storyteller of all time. To enjoy a good story is simply to enjoy a new aspect of His creation. So, go enjoy something new. You have my permission. 😛

** For the record, the name of the book series is Love, Lies, and Hocus Pocus by Lydia Sherrer**