My Social Media-less Life

Bloganuary Writing Prompt:
What fear have you conquered?

The funny thing about this question is that in some ways, I’m overcoming a fear everyday.

I bought a new to me car, I had to write a hard letter to my clients, I’m writing a book (and talking about it with people outside of my family) that I thought would never see the light of day…

If I could live my life without any struggle, I would probably not be alive. Humans were made for conflict of some kind and to have none is to basically be dead.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t wish I had less things to get over everyday.

Fun fact: sometimes just asking a simple question of someone is getting over a fear for me. Or even writing this blog to tell you what I fear.

Because you can’t talk about conquering fear without talking about what the fear is that is being conquered.

Sometimes I marvel at the fact that I even have friends because making friends is scary. And I’m a pretty outgoing person, all things considered.

But being outgoing and being an actual friend are two very different things, I’ve noticed over the years. And I’m better at being outgoing and keeping everyone at a distance than I am at opening up and being vulnerable.

However, I now have two people I call my best friends (don’t worry, they both know 😉 ) and it was a struggle to get even one. Oh, and let’s not forget all the other people I call my friends who have helped with different areas and at different times in my life.

Not all of them are still an active part of my life, but… any fear can be conquered. Even the fear of losing friends you thought would be with you forever.

You just have to learn to face those fears head-on.

Also, having Jesus really does help. I know I talk about Him a lot, but He really is a part of who I am. I want to be more like Him everyday, and He definitely had close friends and people He trusted.

So… I will have friends and people I trust. No matter what the cost. Because for me, the payout is worth it in the end.